Swinging into Balance

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Hold a pendulum in one hand, high up and tightly to any side — then let go — see its swing.

It will swing to the other end; higher possibly than the end you held it at — and then it swings back and then goes back again — and you see this furious swing till eventually it settles down and stops mid point — the point of balance.

Similarly, if you have held yourself tightly in emotional and mental structure; tightly wound up either about your beliefs or your feelings; when you let go — you are going to swing — to the other end and other extreme.

This is a very important aspect to know when you begin self work.

Lets take an example: lets say you have an issue with control.You are a control freak — the day you let go — you will crave and seek freedom — and possibly run away from all structure.

The higher and tighter the pendulum is held on one end; the more dramatic its swing to the other end.

So in your shifts and in letting go you might swing to the extreme of where you were.

It is important to remember this is just a swing. A natural occurrence of being tightly wound up on the other end.

What many of us do is when we reach the other end — we think ahh! We have changed and so we hold onto the other end believing that to be the better end.

So in this case we might say control is one end and the other end is freedom.

Grass is always greener on the other side. Well, not necessarily so.

The key here is that we were meant to shift out of the resonance of ‘control’. Now having moved to another end of the spectrum unfortunately you are still in the spectrum just another end of it. The spectrum of control is still our resonance even though it might be expressed in a manner we feel is better suited to us.

So even if we are structureless – we are still exhibiting an alternate expression of control. It is in experiencing the state of balance that we are able to neither be only controlling or only structureless. It is about embracing both aspects – knowing each has its own value and in merging the two; in bringing them together, you experience the beautiful alchemy of the two ends of the spectrum providing you its highest expression.

When you let go of both ends you begin to settle into your own balance and ease.

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Structure and Energy, teachings of the amazing Spider

We all exist within structure. Its part of what makes us who we are.

We have physical structure to begin with so we are not actually just floating atoms talking to each other telepathically; but there is form and structure in the world that we exist in.

We see similar structure in less tangible terms too — such as our individual persona which structures our reality; extending out to familial, cultural, religious, corporate, governmental structure.

Structure is a common set of rules that we apply to our lives. Sort of a one size fits all, set of controls, that overlays all that we do, think and feel.

It is rigid and heavy and dense like most of what we see around us. It stands proud and strong and unbending to any off road possibilities that might come its way. Our homes, our bodies our world and everything that we connect with, expresses this denseness at its core. At times the structure might be totally inappropriate to us or the situation but we apply it anyway because structure comes first. Structure has become a system that we are all expected to fit into whether it be how we parent, educate, work, live, love, express, pray.

Structure was the first thing I remember realising I had lost when I started my journey. Circumstances had dissolved it and I felt like I had no structure left –  whether it be  mental structure (right or wrong); emotional structure (which was erratic) or my physical reality which was in upheaval.
So though a part of me was terrified of feeling radar less and de-structured — it was also strangely and wonderfully liberating. I felt free! Completely free of any fixed form of thinking or being.

For a long time post,  I resisted all structure.

I believe in freedom. I believe in thinking free, feeling freely, expressing my truth, experiencing a life free of any filters that might limit my perceptions of it.

I saw structure as the roadblock to freedom. Freedom for me was doing whatever I wanted to – allowing my full potential to emerge and express itself. I chose a new mantra ‘go with the flow’. Move away from knowing and controlling to just flowing through life and wherever the currents would take me. I would put no framework of any kind and just wait to be taken along for the ride. Some days, I found myself going nowhere.

For how can you go anywhere if you disengage and detach from your expression of life? Where will the flow take you without direction and focus? It might never even reach you and so that waiting for the flow could turn out to be like waiting for Godot.

Realising the balance of structure and freedom was a big learning; it is not to choose one or the other but to provide your free heart the right structure to act, feel, think and express through.

Yet what then is right structure? That is what the Spider taught me.
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There is no one way

Whether you are at the start, middle or deep into your journey…

Breathe in.
You are where you are meant to be. Whoever, whatever, wherever you are in life; it is exactly as it is meant to be. You are perfect — all is perfect. All is well.
Breathe out.

There is nothing you need to be, do or have; to get started or continue on this journey.

There are millions of people, books and stories out there that will tell you how you should start your journey, who you should be on your journey, or the parameters that gauge your growth on this journey.

I interject here to say you are essentially, ultimately a unique, free, independent, sovereign, powerful, beautiful expression of a constantly expanding source energy. You are here to live your life your way and express truth in your special unique way.

Being inspired, guided, supported, loved by others and learning from them is part of this incredible journey. Continue reading