I’ve been away from my blog for years now. I had this year of intensive sharing and then I just couldn’t anymore. I guess no matter what I wrote or said; I had to know for sure who I am.
In the time I have been away, I have discovered that I am what is called a non-dualist; someone who perceives everything around them as an expression, mirror, reflection of their inner landscape. I have lived this outlook for over 15 years now but it is only recently that I discovered the terminology for it. I discovered that this process, path and practise exists in a well defined structure among vedic and other traditions.
I am in love with learning from life. I live and breathe for this opportunity. Every moment is a window to what life is telling me about myself. I then keep adding learnings and techniques to my practise on how one can shift that which needs to be transformed within.
All my writings so far have. been about sharing of these experiences and the learnings I have had along the way. I have focussed on what I see as truths – those that can be applied to any situation irrespective of the story that surrounds it.
However no matter what I learnt or transformed I just couldn’t fully commit to it. My own self doubt reigned supreme and I ended up dismissing a lot of my learnings and experiences as just coincidences or awkward luck.
I have mentioned some of my teachers in my Healing myself post and in the last 18 months I have had the good fortune of working with another teacher of exquisite skill; Dr. Kavitha Chinnaiyan of the http://Sabda institute. It was with her that I was able to recognise that my journey was one that was rooted in universal truth and that the worst thing I could do for myself was to continue dismissing and denying my own experiences and learnings. Anyone who wishes to truly transform, Kavitha is the person to study with. She offers an incredible structure within which, one is able to actually learn the principles of inner transformation and she holds the bar very high for truth. I was continuously stunned with how much my own journey was a reflection of her teachings.
What I do have is a growing understanding of the importance of sharing this truth in anyway possible. This knowledge has helped me in ways I could never have imagined. The only way to serve this knowledge or vidya is by sharing it forward.
All I can intend is that by reading my posts, a desire or spark for true change and transformation is ignited within and that it grows within you a willingness to traverse the journey to true inner change. My earlier posts will help you understand what this journey is about and as we go along I will also continue to share more such experiences.
Is there an end point? No. I have been on this journey since 2003 and I am still going. I am still learning, growing, evolving, refining, improving, changing, transforming. If you read my blog Beware! Swimming can help you find your true self it might offer you some insight on this continuous journey.
More than anything as I write here today I am grateful. Deeply grateful that life always shows up and teaches me what I need to learn. All I got to do is ask.